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Sometimes the cart works before the horse.
2010-07-29, 2:39 p.m.

I'm leaving the polyamory article from FoxNews up on the computer when I leave for work. Jeff will find it eventually. He thinks I'm putting the cart before the horse a bit on this one. I think it can't be helped at this point. The worries I have about being fair to everyone and doing things, polyamory things, "the right way" are somewhat... Meh... I don't know... I just know that it feels like it's too late for me to be worried about details. I'm reading a lot about polyamory being the save for marriage in certain situations, rather than its undoing. I don't know about save, but I can see it buying a few more really, honestly, happy years. I think that there are places where Jeff and I will never truly connect, or reconnect. I think I see these things better than he does. He's been a huge dickhead lately at times, but much of that is out of hurt. The bits of him that are building confidence and are not hiding behind the passive-aggressive bullshit--those parts can still be loved by me.

However, as I said... It's too late in some regards to go back to the way things were--or try to. The feelings that I have formed in the past month are ripping me apart.

I--even if you boys aren't--am polyamorous.

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